you know the drill;
-no asshattery
-comment to be added

SO BASICALLY I'm changing journals again (..theres too many dead journals on here and it got cluttered and I feel all weird) so please to be adding ~charlesfreck. THANKS.

BAHAHAHAHAHA. I win.

Love,
Tracy

So I've said I was going to do this and? I am.


If you read this and you wish to stay on my friends list, COMMENT here and say so. I'm deleteing everyone from my friends list and only those who reply will be added back. Simplest way to do it, as I see it.


Love!


Oh and? MERRY CHRISTMAS BITCHES

So I woke up at around 820 this morning, due to my mother not realizing that our walls are like, paper thin? And talking loudly. She was also a bit pissy, so being the good daughter that I am, started cleaning my room. I basically got rid of alot of clothes from my closet and still have to actually, you know, straighten up and such but atleast my closet is pretty!


I had a really cracked out dream, like right before I woke up. David Bowie was like, in a Payless shoe store, but he looked sorta..like Jareth from the Labryinth if I remember correctly, except he had Purple hair annnd was wearing a long, purple leopard print (velvet!) skirt. I remember like, spazzing out and hugging him, but I was really short (..or it was probably 'cause he had on really really really tall purple platformy boots) and he like, picked me up and I was a good foot off the ground when he hugged me back.

Yeah.

Breakfast and caffeine are needed, so I'm ganna go do that. Have a nice day LJ.

Here's a llama
There's a llama
And another little llama
Fuzzy llama
Funny llama
llama,llama, duck
Llama,llama, cheesecake llama
Tablet, brick, potato, llama
Llama, llama, mushroom, llama
Llama, llama, Duck
I was once a treehouse
I lived in a cake
But I never saw the way
the orange slayed the rake
I was only three years dead
But it told a tale
And now listen little child
To the safety rail
Did you ever see a llama
Kiss a llama on the llama
Llama's llama tastes of llama
Llama, llama, duck
Half a llama
Twice the llama
Not a llama
Farmer llama
Llama in a car
Alarm a llama
Llama duck
Is that how its told now?
Is it all so old?
Is it made of lemon juice?
Doorknob ankle cold
Now my song is getting thin
I've run out of luck
Time for me to retire now
And become a duck.


brandyalexander commented on my last update, pointing out that I had said that I would update more often if I got a paid account. I obviously lied, but really, if I have plenty of time to type up the Llama song, do you really think I have anything to write about? My point.


Its officially Christmas Break and what am I doing on my first day off? I slept and did some minor rping over at np_hogwarts (which is like, good crack.) annnd am soon going to have to get ready for work. That should be fun, as I'm currently doing an amazing job of looking like a druggie.

I'm siiick. but whatever. I always tend to get colds whenever winter actually decides to strike. I think its sorta lame, but whatever.

Uhmmm I officially only have like, one more semester of school. Thats kinda cool. We order our caps and gowns after Christmas Vacation. I still say we're going to look like a clan of Hufflepuffs, but thats my opinion (ironically? Our rival school's colors are Green and Silver. Hah.).


Right, so. This was an update.

Oh! I'm thinking I'm ganna clean out my friends list and possibly switch to Friend's only soon. Uh, more on that later.

TOODLES.


Oh, also? If anyone could link me to the Llama song and/or The Sawyer Song? That would be much appreciated. Thanks!

A VERY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY WIFE brandyalexander. She's old, and I fear we'll have to put her down soon. Ah well, she's a good wife. I shall miss her.

I want to start off by saying I'm petrified of the future. If you know me well enough you'll learn that I enjoy being in control, and while I love life, I don't care too much for the whole not knowing whats going to happen. I feel like a bum, because I haven't taken the ACT yet and thats coming up in like a week or so. This could decide if I get into the two really good colleges I like, or if I go to Austin Peay, Major in English, Minor in teaching and be a teacher for the rest of my days.

I make it sound horrible, but that just isn't me, and now? I wish I'd done more to keep that from happening. I'm not stupid (despite the fact that I try to convince other people of this), but I just put things off. This isn't good and its part of the reason I never update Livejournal.


I've also come to accept that I am who I am. I like me. I went through a period of time where I had to dress a certain way, had to talk and act to fit a role (and let me tell you, thats the best way to learn how to act.) and I don't any more. I can be comfortable in jeans and in a skirt. I am Kellie hear me roar.


I think, however, that I shouldn't be so rough on me. I shouldn't let my mother dictate who I am, who I'll become, or my friends for that matter. I'm still learning, and one of the things I need to work on is not worrying about the outcome, to know that if I make a mistake, thats ok. I'm far from perfect and I need to accept that.



I need to stop holding things in. Letting them build until I just can't take it anymore and have one of those break down things. They can't be good for me and I'm probably just stressing away my life. Also? I should stop only writing about the happy things in here and locking away the others behind a private lock.

All and All? I still need work, but at the moment, I'm fairly happy.